[It's easier to play it cool when you talk on the phone. He's always been good at that. Quick with some smartass remark if he talked to a friend, cold when his family's lawyers called him, professional when it was about work. There's so much you can do with your voice when you and your body are removed from the situation.
But his body is very much in the situation right now and so is the feeling of vulnerability that comes with it. He absent-mindedly rubs his back, then forces himself to stop.
He's here and his bravery falters. It makes him angry because he can't hide from it out here.
He knows he's afraid.
He knows Luka will know he's afraid.
But there's nothing he can do about that so he takes a deep breath, pulls himself together and knocks.]
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But his body is very much in the situation right now and so is the feeling of vulnerability that comes with it. He absent-mindedly rubs his back, then forces himself to stop.
He's here and his bravery falters. It makes him angry because he can't hide from it out here.
He knows he's afraid.
He knows Luka will know he's afraid.
But there's nothing he can do about that so he takes a deep breath, pulls himself together and knocks.]